oh hey blog

i forgot about you. well not really, i have a pretty killer memory, i just got..lazy. surprise, surprise. also,  i've been pretty busy so i haven't had time to keep up with it. lots of things have changed since the last time i updated so i'll just bullet point them for time's sake (it's 3 am..i should be sleeping!)

*I QUIT MY JOB. my job had really started to eat away at my soul. it was a hard decision and i've never quit a job before unless i was moving but i couldn't stand being there another day. i was going to go back to school so i just used that excuse to justify my decision. although, i didn't start school until the end of august and i quit mid july, with a note that had my key taped to the back. yikes.

*I AM BACK IN SCHOOL. as mentioned above. grad school. how grown up. UTD... is definitely no Texas A&M... but it is what it is yo.

*I FINISHED ACCUTANE. back in september. i ended up being on it for an extra month because i wasn't completely cleared up. i am now. sort of. i have small blemishes but no pimples. i am glad it's over. i am not sure i would recommend it to others or not.  my hair has been shedding a lot since the accutane. it's supposed to be a temporary side effect that lasts about 6 months. 2 months down....

that is all. sweet dreams!

Accutane Update and Randomness

I finished my 2nd month of Accutane! I was on 80 mg daily (40 mg pills twice a day). This month was extremely trying on my skin. My lips were constantly dry, the only thing that helped was aquaphor. Sometimes, I forgot to bring my aquaphor when I was out and about and my lips would crack, peel and bleed. My skin was extremely dry and flaky. A few times this past month, I woke up with small tears on the skin on my armpits. This was annoying because I couldn't shave and anything with sleeves would rub against the tear and sting. I started applying lotion to my underarms before bed and it's been a little better since. I had a break out on my back this month as well. I was slightly irritated because I thought I was done with the breakout and on the road to recovery. When I went to my derm appointment to be able to start month 3, I told her I was unhappy with the progress on my back (my face has been looking amazing) so she prescribed me Ziana, a topical acne cream. Ziana is a combination of an antibiotic and a retinoid. I apply it every night to my back and my face. Hopefully it'll help speed up my treatment. Hopefully. My blood test results were also "really good" according to my dermatologist. Aside from the dryness, flaking and occasional cracking and bleeding, 'twas not so bad.. Onto month 3.... and if you're curious, here's a picture of me sans make up, halfway through my second month.

"I hope you find it, what you're looking for. I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be and so much more. I hope you're happy, wherever you are."

my life in texts

GOODNIGHT

run forrest run

something really strange happened today. i felt like running. if you know me at all, you know that i am lazy. working out is a form of punishment to me. i hate to work out. i only work out to be in shape. if i had an awesome metabolism or i was tall enough to look alright with a few extra pounds, i would never work out. ever. lately, i've been pushing myself to try to eat right or work our or both. part of it is my family, with the exception of my dad, my family is fixated on diet and fitness. lately, it seems like it's all we talk about. this diet. that diet. weight watchers. atkins. grapefruit juice. protein shakes. blah. when you're constantly surrounded by this, you're constantly aware of how out of shape you are. another part is work, it's the same way at my work. everyone's in shape and everyone is always talking about what they eat, how they eat, when they work out etc etc etc. i really have no choice but to be constantly thinking and talking about food and exercise. most of the time, i fake it. pretend to enjoy it. but really, there's so much else i'd rather talk about than eating right and exercising. how boring. but for some reason, it's all everyone around me wants to talk about. confession time: it makes me feel fat. at work, i'm the most out of shape. at home, i have a sister who is tiny and obsessed with fitness. i also have a mother, who feels the need to remind me i'm not skinny enough every 5 minutes. okay maybe every 10 minutes but i'm really not exaggerating here. really. so, i've pretty much been pushing myself to try to eat right(not always successful) and exercise. i love food, i love to cook and i love to eat, so eating healthy all the time is challenging for me. therefore, i try to make up for it by exercising. a while back, i had started p90x. i love p90x. if you want results p90x is your best friend. i stopped it after a few weeks though, when i started accutane because i was extremely tired and had extremely sore knees and lower back. i started exercising again last week but i didn't really want to go back to p90x yet. so i've been running. i'm not a runner. i hate to run. i probably have a 12 minute mile, not that i even want to find out. but running works. fast. so i've been pushing myself to run/walk 30 minutes 6 times a weeks on the treadmill. today, the weather was really nice so i decided to run outside. i went to a local high school track with a friend, but there was some sort of practice at the track so we couldn't run there. we left and went to another track and it was taken over by about 50 5-7 year old soccer kids. finally we decided to go to a park, but our timing was awful and it was already dark. the park we went to is covered with trees and has a creek running behind it. it's beautiful during the day, but at night it's like asking to be kidnapped and murdered to be out there. so we went home. normally, i'd be perfectly alright with wasting time instead of working out, actually i'd be secretly relieved but not today for some reason. i was annoyed. i had this weird aggression built up from not being able to run so i came home got on the treadmill and just ran. forrest gump style. those were the most intense 30 minutes of running ever. it burned but felt so satisfying to bust my ass. i'm actually looking forward to doing it again tomorrow. i can't really explain it. it just felt so good to feel my body burning and sweating. maybe i experienced my first runner's high because i definitely feel addicted and want more. 

What happens in Vegas...

gets blogged about. I went to Vegas last week for 3 days with work. We went for a dental conference, which sounds lame but it was actually quite interesting. I'd never been to Vegas so I was excited. We managed to fit a few fun things into the work trip..

Our hotel was right next to the Bellagio, so we walked over and hit up the casino. Oh yeah, and the guy we asked to take this picture, wanted a picture of us on his camera as well, weird.

Criss Angel's Illusion Show at the Luxor. It was incredible. However, I will say that as an adult, the whole time you're sitting there trying to figure out how he's managing to do the trick; whereas kids enjoy the show more because they are simply in awe of -- MAGIC.

VIP at the Jet (located in the Mirage). I owned that pole. But that'll be our secret, okay?

The morning after. We wore Dr. D out. He loves us though, our work trip was such a bonding experience. Can't wait to go back in December!